To Surrender You Must Talk to Me!

Communication is important for the success of any relationship. Whether it's a business partnership, casual friends, boss and employee or lovers. The ability to share your thoughts, ideas and concerns help clear away assumptions and bring clarity to whatever subject is between you.

We have all been in relationships where a word is spoken or a look given and based on past history with that person or not we immediately find a reaction rising up. Now we may not act on that feeling, and hopefully if it causes us conflict we'll bring that up so there can be a discussion.  I have found that many times what I thought was meant, actually was not to be taken that way and what could have turned into an offense or hurt was now dissolved through clarification.

I find this to be especially critical in a D/s relationship. What attracts me and keeps me in the D/s world is the honesty and vulnerability that can be expressed without judgement.  A place to embrace who you are and find those who will compliment you along your journey.

As a dominant female there is nothing more beautiful to me than the submission of a strong, virile man not afraid to open up his soul and bring you along on a journey of discovery.  To know that he feels safe with you and trusts you with his deepest secrets that even family and close friends don't know about.  To be that safe place where he can be free to be the fullness of who he is without judgement or criticism.

But in order to achieve that place there must be communication.  I'm not a mind reader and if I was, I still would have to make my way through the maze of your thoughts to get to what you are trying to say to me.  I don't know how you feel, what motivated you to search for me and find me or what you want from our partnering unless we talk! 

To surrender you must talk to me. Take that step, even if it is a baby step, and start to share what is on your mind. Show me that you are serious about your surrender and not just looking to fulfill a fantasy. I'm not expecting novels or even chapters of a book. But an honest quest to embrace the fullness of you and be celebrated in that fullness.  Even if it takes years to unfold...let our time together be productive...even if it is only the beginning of your journey and I am only your first guide.

Talk to me.

I'll Take Two Please!

It's still early afternoon for me, but in the middle of the night for him when his text comes across my phone. Twenty minutes of natural, easy texting going back and forth and the sexual connection building as it always does with him.  I know it's late and he needs to sleep.

Pet: "Yes, I'm pretty tired, but I'd like to fall asleep with one of our stories."

Me: "Yes. It's about you living through me, feeling what I'm feeling. Seeing another man want and hunger after me. Take me in front of you. You standing there off to the side, naked, hands down, unable to move...waiting for my instructions."

Pet: "OMG Mistress. Yes. So feeling what you are feeling, soaking in the passion, watching you kiss him deeply, rubbing his cock..."

Me: "We are standing in the middle of the room. I've instructed him to remove his pants after you watched me unbutton his shirt, run my hands over his chest and glide his shirt off his shoulders to the floor. I turn and look at you..."

Pet: "You stare at me with lust glazed eyes just before letting him unzip your dress and it falls to the floor, unveiling your sexy firm frame to your lover.  Oh Fuck, OMG...I can feel his hunger for you and your lust for him. My cock hardens every time you moan from his kiss or touch, sending hot sparks through me..."

Me: "You see him take one of my full breast in one hand as the other hand slides in between my legs and pushes two fingers inside my waiting hungry pussy."

Pet: "Yes, Yes Mistress. I flash on what it feels like to have my fingers explore and feel your hunger. My own fingers start to twitch as I watch your hips move with the rhythm of his hand. My craving for you is even deeper, more intense, knowing I have to wait..."

Me: "I motion for you to stand behind me so I can lean against you as he leans down and suckles one of my breasts, still moving his fingers in and out of my aching pussy. I push myself into him as I use you as leverage and can feel your cock pressing against me...your precum sliding along my back and ass..."

Pet: "OMG...Leaning against me...!  Mistress, having him touching, kissing, exploring you with me watching, craving and feeling everything through you...."

Me: "You move back into a chair, sitting in a position so I'm able to back up to you and lean back against you in the chair.  I still feel your hard, wet cock behind me. You start to kiss my neck and shoulders as he lifts my legs up along his chest and enters me.  I feel his hunger along with your passion and the crazed energy flooding through you."

Pet: "Oh fuck...God yes Mistress...Every time your lover pushes into you, I feel you press back into me. Your soaking pussy and moans inviting him in deeper."

Me: "Then he pulls me forward toward him so I'm leaning more on him. My ass lifting off of you and you can see him inside me. Then he moves us both to the floor, me straddling him. You move forward as I put one hand on one of my ass cheeks, a signal to you that I want you there."

Pet: "Oh fuck Mistress.  Shall I lick your ass while you fuck him? Please?"

Me: "You leave the chair and take the juice running from my pussy and start to rim my anus and slowly move one, then two fingers inside me..."

Pet: "Gently scooping more and more of your free flowing juice to lube your sexy asshole.  It's obvious you are fully into fucking your lover, and I so can feel that heat in me too..."

Me: "You bend forward and I can feel the familiar touch of your tongue..."

Pet: "I start out gentle, staying in rhythm with you fucking his cock..."

Me: "He moves stronger, thrusting harder and I call out your name to take me..."

Pet: "When I open my eyes for a moment I can see his shaft ram deep into you.  My tongue moves in and out of your ass now.  Up and down your seam, accidentally brushing his shaft with my tongue, then back to your delicious ass.."

Me: "You thrust your ready cock into my ass and can feel his cock along the membrane..."

Pet: "Mmmmm  Oh God, thank you for letting me fuck you Mistress, oh fuck..."

Me: "I'm so full with both of you.  Feeling your cocks move in and out of me.."

Pet: "Oh God your ass feels so good. And I feel each thrust of his cock in your pussy.  My hard cock filling your sexy ass, feeling you fuck us both deep."

Me: "Then with one last thrust we all come together. I feel the warmth of your seeds filling my linings and walls. I shiver and quake under the assault.  My nerve endings are ultra sensitive and my body floating away in some unknown universe."

Pet: "Mmmmm Yes! Feeling so full and cum splashing you everywhere...Oh God... "

Me: "He holds me one last time and then slides out of me. You pick me up and take me to the bed. My lover has pulled all the covers back and has crawled into bed first.  We both crawl into bed next to him.  Me in the middle, my back to him. His legs wrap around me. You in front of me.  You and I kissing, my legs wrapped around you."

Pet: "I so love that he is in bed with us. I really do. His legs wrapped around you. After we calm some, you kiss me deeply and whisper seductively in my ear, 'Could you go and clean me up pet?' Your hands are now on my shoulders gently guiding my face lower, leaving no doubt to what you mean."

Me: "So good to me pet.  I love the three of us in bed together also. When you are done, you fall asleep at my breasts."

Pet: "Oh God, Oh God..I'm gonna cum again! I already came once and am so close to cuming again for you! "

Me: "With your mouth still pressed against my breasts, you awaken as I start to stir as his cock probes the folds of my pussy."

Pet: "Yes! Oh God yes! You're going to let him fuck you again?!"

Me: "He moves me on top of you and balances me on all fours over you. Your legs spread just enough to let him slip in between to enter me from behind.  Your mouth kissing my breasts, your hands running along my sides. He starts slowly, then watching you touch and kiss me he explodes in erotic passion and you feel the strength of his legs move along yours as he pounds inside me. My eyes staring into yours.. ."

Pet: "Mmmm...Came with you staring into my eyes. Oh fuck!  Drifting off now Mistress.... Mmmmmm."

Me: "Sweet dreams pet. "

Give Me Everything!

I look at this picture, which I found on tumblr today (go to my tumblr account: http://sexualdestinies.tumblr.com/ ..... also listed on the right top corner of this blog. ) ... and I see a beautiful picture of sweet surrender, pleasure and pain all mixed in a delicious blend for my erotic appetite!

Although I like to see the ropes a little tighter (leaving some tail signs of their work left on his skin when removed) for the beauty of this picture it works.  Ass and chest lifted up and leaning back upon the chair as the top of the chair slightly digs into his back.

I can hear the conversation...... "I'd like a picture of the work we've done today pet, so I'll need you to lift your ass up...thrusting your hips toward the ceiling, balancing yourself on the chair...very nice."

I run my hands along the back of his thighs, up along his curved buttocks, feeling the muscles tense and harden as he fights to keep still. Now my fingers gently trace along his stomach, up along his pectorals and find their way along his elongated throat.

"Hold it right there pet." I whisper in his ear.  He twitches, fighting sensations in the nerve endings my breath awakens.

My fingers run down from his shoulders to his bound hands and I step back taking the fullness of the sight into my soul.

His face is a lovely mixture of control, surrender, pain and pleasure.  The pleasure stemming from the intimate knowledge that his complete surrender pleases me. He trust me with all his vulnerabilities. He's free in my presence to explores his deepest needs. His darkest places.

I snap a few pictures. Beautiful. His surrender locked for all eternity.

"You may sit now pet."

He sighs and lowers himself down to the cold hard seat. He bows his head to relax the muscles in his neck.

"Keep your head bowed pet."

His breathing picks up as he hears me walk towards him. The warmth between my legs increases, wet, ready....We've only just begun to play.

e[lust] #37 - Enjoy!

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50 Shades of Very Lite BDSM-101

Ok!  Yes...many have commented on '50 Shades of Grey' and I was refraining from joining in but when I heard that the book was being banned (and now 'unbanned') from libraries I had to read the book myself to see what all the fuss is about!  '50 Shades of Grey' Publisher-Library Bans Are UNCONSTITUTIONAL

I had heard the writing was juvenile and half way through the first chapter I had to agree!  If I hadn't already known that the author is a grown woman I would have thought she was a teenager! The writing and characters are out of a 16 year old's fantasy. This book is very tame as far as BDSM goes. The story does get better as it moves along and despite the poor writing it's an easy read.  But if you're looking for exciting erotica...look elsewhere! The story is really about saving poor Christian from his misguided view of sexual play and pleasure! Again...BDSM is made out to be the only avenue of pleasure for broken people!  It's a shame. Damn!  Give me that 'Red Room of Pain'! That is worth drooling over!

Here are some of the examples of poor writing that drove me just a little nuts:  Using the Kindle search function you'll discover that Ana says "Jeez" 81 times and "oh my" 72 times. Characters roll their eyes 41 times, Ana bites her lip 35 times, Christian's lips "quirk up" 16 times, Christian "cocks his head to one side" 17 times, characters "purse" their lips 15 times, and characters raise their eyebrows a whopping 50 times. She "blushes" or "flushes" 125 times, including 13 that are "scarlet," 6 that are "crimson," and one that is "stars and stripes red." Ana "peeks up" at Christian 13 times, and there are 9 references to Christian's "hooded eyes," 7 to his "long index finger," and 25 to how "hot" he is. Christian's "mouth presses into a hard line" 10 times. Characters "murmur" 199 times, "mutter" 49 times, and "whisper" 195 times, "clamber" on/in/out of things 21 times, and "smirk" 34 times. Christian and Ana also "gasp" 46 times and experience 18 "breath hitches".

To save the day and your time reading this post I would love you to check out this wonderful erotica book by Joey W. Hill. 'Natural Law' book two of her Nature of Desire series!  Joey W. Hill is one of my favorite erotica writers.  Make sure you have your lover/significant other/sub/dom close by!  The scenes are true to BDSM and very intoxicating and arousing!  Just as it should be. I have the book listed among my Amazon favorites. This book will make you smile!

Tie Me Up! ~ I think....

Being the mistress in our D/s relationship I am mainly the one tying up my lovely submissive. I adore seeing him bound...whether spread eagle across the bed or bound in a body harness standing helpless before me, blindfolded, cock and balls tied and him at my mercy. He is always willing and obedient. Makes me swoon. :)  But there are times when I want him to 'take me'!  It's an agreement we have that he can, at times, take his 15% to have his way with me. It works for me.  I can get bored being the one 'in charged' all the time and coming up with what we are going to do. I trust him and feel comfortable enough with him to just surrender...When in the mood. :)

We have talked about him tying me up, blindfolding me etc.  All of my life I have been very uncomfortable with being restrained. Especially my wrists restrained. I don't even wear a watch and rarely a bracelet because I don't like the feeling of something around my wrists. I know...I enjoy him restrained...very much...go figure! I've tried to find why I have this reaction...haven't found the 'why' yet.

So.. a few days ago, in fact the night after I had had him restrained, spread eagled and blindfolded on the bed and enjoyed his submission, he decided it was his turn to enjoy his 15%.  I agreed.  He did deserve his turn and I was definitely in the mood to just let him take charge.  He had that wonderful 'evil look' in his eyes that I knew I would enjoy whatever he had in mind.

Let me preface by saying he had restrained me in the past. I had been standing, in a body harness with my wrists and ankles bound, not blindfolded, as he filled my senses with his touch and teasing. So when he brought out the cuffs that I had used the night before on him to restrain my naked body to the bed...I was ok. Heart only beating with anticipation of pleasure as he attached the cuffs to my wrists and ankles. So far...so good.

Then he brought out the silk blindfold and gently, lovingly lifted my head and tied it securely. Still...ok.

THEN he turned me onto my stomach.  My heart started to pick up its pace feeling the vulnerability of not only being blindfolded but now face down on the bed. 

Right hand was bound to the bed.  Keeping in mind that my legs are still free.  Heart beat increases and logic seems to be slipping away. As he secures my left hand to the bed all logic slips away, blood rushes through my body and panic sets in...quickly!

I yelled, "I can't do it!" I don't remember what else I yelled, but it didn't matter.  He immediately released my left hand and I yanked the blindfold off my eyes. I'm thankful he is an expert at 'quick release' knots!

The next few minutes are a blur to me but we were both laughing out of shock but also because of the panic that had quickly overtaken me. With anyone else there would not have been laughter, but with my submissive and the trust we have I knew I was in good safe hands. It killed the rest of the night for us....play time was definitely over.  He held me, we talked and eventually went to sleep.

The next day the whole experience bothered me!  For many reasons. First I had great admiration for those submissives that so easily surrender to those that they serve. But what first bothered me was finding out this hard limit of mine. Knowing that we all have our limits. But the main thing was knowing that I could go from pleasure to panic so quickly. We had joked the night before that I would make a terrible spy! I'd give up information at the first sign of restraints and blindfolds...immediately!

Still the fact of knowing this vulnerability of mine, which I had wondered if it truly existed, was now a reality did not sit well with this mistress!  So when my submissive returned home that next day I had my plan.  Inch by inch he would bind me a little at a time until I conquered my fear and panic no longer was a result.

So the journey begins.  Which I know he'll enjoy and so will I ... I trust him. It may take a while...it will be an adventure!

To all you lovely submissives who love to be bound, blindfolded and restrained in many ways...my hat is bowed to you.  Great respect from this mistress who loves to bind you. Your gift is even more enjoyable and precious to me now!

Below is a lovely pic of binding that thrills me...for him!

e[lust] #36

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"The Invitation" by Oriah Mountain Dreamer

I ran across this beautiful prose today and being a little OCD at times, I researched to make sure I had the original prose.  I did find that there are some other versions out there and some that say this young Canadian women is an indian elder.  A misconception.  I have added her book that came from this prose to my Amazon book list.  I highly recommend this life giving book for your own library.

"The Invitation" by Oriah Mountain Dreamer

copyright © 1999 by Oriah Mountain Dreamer.

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain!  I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own; if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, or to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn't interest me if the story you're telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul; if you can be faithless and therefore be trustworthy. 

I want to know if you can see beauty even when it is not pretty, every day, and if you can source your own life from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "Yes!"

It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children.

It doesn't interest me who you are, how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself, and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

But I like to look at a penis!

Today I ran across an article titled: Why Penis Pictures Aren't Pretty and I know this has been discussed by many women and men.  Well I'm here to throw in my 'two cents'!  I will first state that I do not welcome unsolicited 'penis' pics from men I've never met! But I will admit to enjoying many 'penis' pics posted on tumbler sites that I thought were amazingly done! And I happen to think the man in my life is wonderfully equipped! There are many pics on my Fetlife profile to attest to that!

I do understand what most of the complaints are about. Men randomly sending pics of their penis to a woman to hopefully impress her. I agree that is poor taste and shows a lack of discernment toward the woman and her desires. BUT...Overall.. I love a great cock shot.  Especially if presented in an artistic way. I am a woman very attracted to the male form and a man's penis is a wonderfully delightful play toy at the right time! ( I have been known to tie up my submissives's balls in paracord and recently we had great fun with what is called 'The Helicopter'! )

A man's penis is also an erotic ever changing body part that brings me great and ever increasing satisfaction!

Are they pretty?  I'd say that beauty is definitely, in this case, in the eye of the beholder.  But I do think most are beautiful!



My Submissive - Lovely!

How I met my submissive man was on a BDSM site and one of his videos was highlighted on the home page. Now there are some pretty sad videos on the web and there should be a class on how to tastefully shoot a video of a man masturbating. ( I admit to being a bit of a voyeur on this subject! ) I clicked on his video and was impressed by his movements, style and almost poetic way he presented himself.  After watching multiple times I finally email him my approval of his work...and well...here we are together! Since then I love the random cock shots he'll send through the week! :)

Below is a pic I have always loved.  To me it celebrates the beauty of the male physique. Mmmmmm... Gets my heart racing... Now where is that man of mine!!! LOL

Strap-On Play ~ Sometimes You Just Have to Laugh!

Turtles

Well it started out hot, passionate and romantic! I had company over but they had left for the night, not to be back until morning. My delicious slave and I decided we were in the mood for some great D/s play but in wisdom decided to play in my bedroom and not the living room if by chance my company decided to return unexpectedly.  A little hard to explain and quickly shuffle out of the living room a naked man, (as beautiful as he is), bound and me found in mid strike to his ass with the riding crop! :)

So the bedroom it was, and the electricity, passion and erotic tension was building beautifully. His beautiful ass was just beginning to blush when we both heard the front door open!  We both dove to shut my bedroom door. I laughing and he suspended in humilation and shock at the possibility of being seen! "Quiet!" I laughingly commanded.  And again we proceeded in regaining the mood ever conscious of my visitor only being a wall away.

Strap-On play was the goal of the night and the tension and mood was quickly returning. I had just purchased a new dildo, larger than what he was use to, but feeling confident he could accommodate it. Me with harness and new dildo ready, my slave positioned himself on my bed, on his bound wrists, knees spread and ass in the air waiting. :)  I knew he was keenly aware of the visitor in the next room and wanted to remain as quiet as possible.

Slowly I prepared his tight opening with my lubed fingers, the lube cool on his skin but his tight canal welcoming my touch and probing. Then I slowly stroked his ass cheeks, his shaft and balls increasing his pleasure. As I gently and with great care started to insert my new toy into his canal I was meeting with resistance.

"Relax." I leaned against the small of his back and whispered toward his hearing. "Relax." As I stroked his cheeks and used my fingers to open him more. I started to insert again and heard faint whispers coming from his turned head.  But couldn't make out what he was saying.

"Do you want me to stop?" I asked.

He shook his head. "No. I'm ok." But I could see a worried look spreading across his face.

"Maybe I should use the other one." I suggested. Getting concerned...knowing we could try some other time.  He shook his head, so I proceeded to maneuver the dildo further.

"Awwww." I heard him release quietly.

"You ok?" I asked, then heard him whisper something but couldn't make it out.

Three times I had him repeat it when I finally heard him say with a strain..."Too big!"

Call me cruel, but I broke out laughing!  Something about this strong alpha male, bound by the wrists, trying to muffle his moans in the sheets to not be heard, then finally releasing, "Too big!" struck me so funny!

I slowly and gently removed the dildo from his canal and told him to stay put while I changed dildos.  I was determined to have his ass that night! When I returned from the bathroom with the dildo I knew he could take, he was laying on his side in a fetal position on the bed. I'm sorry men, but that struck me funny again!  I started to laugh so hard, and feeling bad for him, I released his wrists from the rope.

I told him to lie on his back. My favorite way to take him. I like fondling his cock and balls in between pounding that lovely ass. Then watching the expressions on his face... Mmmmm. I thought for sure this would get me back into the right mood. I was wrong!

As I started to slide the smaller dildo into him I could feel the laughter starting to bubble out of my throat. The look on his face was ease, knowing he could take this one, but that was not what got me laughing again! He is the most humble slave, loving, considerate, willingly accommodating  the kinky requests I have for him with not much thought for himself. He has truly put his safety in my hands.

So here he was, calm, at ease, lying on his back, legs up and spread, his hands holding his thighs in place, eyes closed, waiting .... just surrendered and waiting.  He looked so precious to me and then I laughed as a picture came to my mind of a turtle on his back unable to move.  I lost it at that point! The laughter started to roll out of me, all the while he is trying to get me to be quiet because of my visitor.  I no longer cared!!!!  All I could see was this gorgeous turtle before me surrendered!!!!

He started laughing also as I finally was able to verbalise what I was seeing as snot ran out of my nose onto his chest, my body heaving back and forth and tears now running down my face.

Yep!  No turning back now!  The moment of passion was long passed and we ended the night in each others arms, with intermittent laughter over turtles.  His new nickname now!

I love the look on his face! Priceless!