Saturday, May 31, 2014

Saturday Eye Candy!

To celebrate Saturdays and that we all need a diversion or two, here are a few of my a favorite Eye Candy today from my tumblr site!

I do love when a man is comfortable with his body and with good reason.  When he slowly sheds his clothes as I watch and feel my arousal rise as each article of clothing drops to the floor. I become silent and try to read the thoughts going through his his body language...his eyes lowering, then closing as he feels my stare touching along his bare skin.

Exposed to me.

Stopping him at this point to stare and enjoy the sight.

The vulnerable, yet sensuous confidence he reveals to me.

Monday, May 26, 2014

Seduce Me!

I've talked to a few men on the two dating sites I'm on, and have met a few in person that made it that far with my interest.  As of today, no connection.  In this journey I'm wondering if I have been out of the dating pool so long that men have changed or have I changed so much that I find the pool very limited in potential prospects.

My profile on those sites are the same with the same very PG pics.  I'm not overly dominant sounding on them, but there are undertones that one who is inclined towards D/s and looking for a strong female partner will see that shining through.  It attracts those who are submissive, those who want to try and those who are attracted to strong women in general.  I decided to not be blatant because I want options.  Training someone with potential can be a lovely journey.  I find there are many men who are curious once we get into conversations along that line.  And I have learned some do's and don'ts along the way!

DO:  Be myself in spirit and soul.  Feel comfortable in knowing who I am and let that confidence shine through.

DON'T: Share what all lies in that sexual, sensual heart!  They may say they love a strong women, but unless they confess to being submissive and wanting a female dominant, they'll be intimidated that I may know more about control than they do!  The thought of surrendering themselves to me sounds enticing at first, but left to their own thoughts, once out of my sight, they'll call foul and feel the security of their masculinity at risk.  No matter how much I sense a desire deep within them.

DO: Tell them I'm a writer.

DON'T: Share my stories with them!  They say they are big boys and can handle anything.  But, again, unless they are part of the D/s world or a reader of Femdom erotica, they'll fold!  They make the mistake that I immediately want to do all those things with them!  Which is crazy... I'll at least wait until the second date!  Just kidding!  And this applies to those men who do have D/s experience.  Doesn't anyone understand that what they are reading is fiction?  Well... mostly fiction, based on my life...but they don't know that!  And what I may have eventually with them will have it's own flavor!  It's own rhythm and style.

You may be saying I should stick with alternative dating sites.  I've tried those in the past before I met NB and they never produced for me.  I actually met NB on a vanilla site.  But we both had enough in our profiles that drew us to each other.  I recently had a profile on 'Collar Me' ... briefly. That proved to be a disappointment for many reasons.  People don't seem to read what you carefully put in your profile of what you want and are looking for.  I lasted there two weeks!

What do I want?  Be honest, accept me that I'm being honest with you and seduce me!  I don't care how submissive you are, you still need to chase me, be assertive in wanting me and fucking seduce me!

Let your sexuality show.  Be open to me exploring your mind and soul.  Push back the fear of not being enough, if that is what it is, and let me revel in your vulnerability.  Let me appreciate the beauty that emanates from you and seduce me with the desire you can't hold back.  Be confident, be bold, be fearless!

Seduce me!

Tease me!

Entice Me!

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Daenerys and Game of Thrones.

These are my two favorite scenes from Game of Thrones.  Hot, dominant, sexy!!!!! Damn! Thank you to Ferns for pointing the way to find them!

Take off your clothes.

Swear to me.

The Crack in the Door.....

The door is cracked and I'm seeing the light in the other room. Didn't know I was locked in a shroud of my last relationship. Only able to feel and see what we were made of. My sight blocked by 'what was and had been'. Even in trying to move forward, still unconsciously looking for what I lost. It doesn't work. What I had was wrapped up in him. In us and what we built together. Never again to be found or duplicated. Finally with the door that has been opened all the time before me, my eyes have adjusted and I see the light shining from the other side. My heart finally able to have the motivation to leave behind what was and to look forward, with courage, to explore again what 'might be'. No preconceived ideas, but an understanding of myself better than I've had before and knowing what I need and want.

Of course, if and when I find that one again he will have a submissive nature wired in the midst of all that masculinity, testosterone and strength. He will love to lay it at my feet to be used at will and for my pleasure. His appetite will be what only I can satisfy. His soul will plead with me to tie him, tease him, fuck him any way I choose. His touch will be gentle when I need it to be and his love will be sealed upon me. Above all, he will want me as I am.

I'm greedy and admittedly selfish!  I've tasted how things can be.  I want it all.

Sunday, May 18, 2014

The Man or the Relationship......

I have loved men throughout my life. They all, good or bad, played significant parts in my life. In the molding in who I am today. I learned to have patience, to forgive as to not have my own heart become bitter. I have learned to look beyond my own thinking and try to understand the thoughts of another no matter how foreign to my own they may be. I have loved other men. But I was in love with NB.

There is a love that I read about, saw exhibited in others and had come to believe that it was out of reach for me. That I was somehow incapable of experiencing that kind of unconditional love for someone.  From the beginning with NB there was a knowing of each other that couldn't be explained. A sense of having lived in another time together. An understanding of what the other needed without speaking the request. A calm and relaxation between our souls and spirits; a familiarity that spoke to us both. Over the last year of our relationship due to some emotional trauma NB went through, I lost him. First emotionally, then finally physically. We speak now and then, touch base to see how the other is doing. But what once existed between us is now only a memory. I can hear in his voice at times a longing for what we once had, yet an emotional inability to move toward that again.

It's been confusing in sorting out my feelings.  But moving forward has helped and I find my dilemma has been this:  Do I miss the man or the relationship?

As much as I love him still, it's not the same. The man I met almost 3 years ago is no longer there. The man I talk to or receive a text from these days is not the same man. I have come to understand that it's the relationship I miss. Not the man.

I miss the familiarity that comes over time. It's woven through many conversations, shared emotions and experiences of life. Trials, burdens, revealed secrets and joys making up it's fabric. Rituals that naturally arise out of your sexuality with each other. The feeding of your souls and spirits as you are mingled in each other's existence. Being known, accepted, celebrated and loved.

In making my way in the single life I have come to understand that many of the men I have chosen to even consider as a potential partner all have had bits and pieces of what once laid in NB's heart. I realized then why I wasn't making any progress in moving forward. I was trying to restore what I had lost. An impossible task! None one will ever be NB. No one will ever give me what I had with him. It was uniquely ours. But that was a time in the past. Never to be lived again.

I cherish the relationship, and do miss it, but I take with me into the future the knowledge that I have the capability to love. My eyes are open to what and who may lie ahead.  My heart is finally ready to see into another. To experience a new direction and journey. To taste the flavor of another man and let him deep into my soul and learn of his. To no longer be looking to what has been familiar and what I have been missing but to see what I still need to discover in someone new.

To learn of a new touch, a new look and a new way to reach another. To take the time to unfold what lies in him and let another fabric naturally be woven through the exchanges of our lives coming together. To find someone that over time makes me hungry for his taste, his smell and his touch. To once again let the darkness within my soul light up at the sound of his voice as he speaks my name. To know and be known thoroughly again.

Of course I miss the man. The man he once was. But I know now, it's the relationship I had with him, the familiarity that I have missed even more.

Saturday, May 17, 2014

Saturday Eye Candy!

To celebrate Saturdays and that we all need a diversion or two, here are a few of my a favorite Eye Candy today from my tumblr site!

I've been working 6 -7 days a week for about a month and very time poor! This will continue for a while but I'm making adjustments to keep things running smoothly and keep my writing moving along. This is truly my heart beat! 

I love big hands ... hanging balls ... well, you get the picture! 

Why 'commando' is a must with jeans!

Color him beautiful!

Saturday, May 10, 2014

Saturday Eye Candy!

To celebrate Saturdays and that we all need a diversion or two, here are a few of my a favorite Eye Candy today from my tumblr site!

Today's theme...Cum for me!

Touch yourself for me.....

Let your desire build....

Cum for me! 

Saturday, May 3, 2014

Saturday Eye Candy!

To celebrate Saturdays and that we all need a diversion or two, here are a few of my a favorite Eye Candy today from my tumblr site!

I'm in a busy season for now and almost forgot to post this today!  I found a new Tumblr blog this week. The Lusting Gentleman. I enjoy it mostly for the beautiful 'selfies' he posts!  This first image says it all! The rest enjoy as I have of his images.  ;)