And I mean physically, psychologically and emotionally. Being in a long distance relationship can have its dark moments.
I love NB and I hate how his work can consume him. He works hard and I appreciate that and I do have the freedom to find others to fill some of my time while he is away. But it's not the same as when he is with me to share in whatever I wish to share with him in person. We text, email and talk on the phone while he is gone, but if the time between our visits is too great I feel this overwhelming desire to tie him down and take all my frustrations out on him. I want to lash out at him for having my heart so completely! Make him suffer as I suffer when it's been too long since I've felt his skin against mine. Too long since I felt his deep, passionate kiss, the silky touch of his hands and fingers. The crazed look and overwhelming desire for me that comes over him as I share some details of my latest adventure. Waking up in the middle of the night with his arms around me and cock buried inside me. We are addicted to each other. And so deeply connected that he can feel when I'm at that dark edge without me saying a word.
His text tonight: "I need to come up sooner than expected." I wanted to reach through the phone and wring his cuckold neck! My response: "Yes! Like yesterday!" Confirming to him that I'm pacing the floor and needing to do him harm. Which I still may do when he finally gets his lovely ass up here! I do love how willingly he surrenders. We will both be satisfied and extremely happy once he arrives!
I want this room and this bed! Yes, I need this now!
I was a stunt cock. Or maybe I was a dream that came and went in a drunken blur of smashing bodies. Either way it was ephemeral to the extent that I didn’t even feel guilty about it the next morning.
I wandered in far too late for anyone to be up, but they were naked in bed and ready. He tore my clothes off my body, and I climbed in with her between us. She curled up against me and for a few moments I thought sleep was more inevitable than anything else.
“You can come closer,” she whispered, breaking my doubts in half.
In my blurry memory it was only seconds later that I had a condom on and was between her legs. He was in her mouth and she was moaning and writhing on the bed like a shadow in the dark. I could hardly see myself thrusting inside her, but it didn’t matter. We were three frantic people fucking our brains out at two in the morning, and the last thing we cared about was what it looked like.
When I came it was sudden. I bit my lip and thrust so deeply inside her that she screamed. I scratched her thigh with my nails and pulled her hips down against me. She didn’t stop sucking, and he didn’t once let go of her hair. When I finally calmed down enough to climb behind her I watched in amazement as his movements grew faster. I reached a hand out to his ass and pulled him to her, straining in the dark to see her lips take him in.
He leaned down to kiss me just as he started to come, and all three of us held our breaths. Her hand was a blur, and at the last moment she let him go and we watched him cover her neck and shoulder. I kissed her hair as his moans quieted, and moments later he collapsed against her body.
As we lay there in the dark, barely on this side of sleep, I saw her smile in the dim light of the city streets.
I kissed her again and closed my eyes.
Guy New York
(If you enjoy my writing, you might like my new novel, The Island on The Edge of Normal, now available on Kindle and in Print.)
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Is it fair that I can have any man I find enticing and NB must always and forever be faithful to me? Probably not to most people, but alas, we are not most people! It's very fair to me because we both get what we want. NB has no desire for another woman. He needs to be in love, sexually stimulated, addicted and with a woman who can fulfill and challenge his desires. I need a man who loves my drive, passion, need to be in charge, allows me freedom to explore others when the opportunity arises, challenges my mind and loves me as I love him with all my heart. I need the thrill of seeing how crazy he gets thinking of another man bringing me pleasure and sharing all those lovely details with him as he ravishes my body. He also understands that he is the one who satisfies my soul and heart.
The thought of NB being with another woman makes me go very primal. You don't want to see that. That man belongs to me. I alone decide where his sexual pleasure comes from. I have invested my life and heart into him, he is my best friend and I own him through and through. Every other woman pales in comparison of what we have together and I plan on keeping it that way.
Our lives are erotic, complicated and ever growing and increasing in what we desire to explore and learn together. So is it fair that he must always be faithful while I am able to roam at my pleasure? Yes...very fair. It is what we both need. And that is what really matters. Us.
To celebrate Saturdays and that some Saturdays I have way too much time on my hands, here are a few of my a favorite Eye Candy today from my tumblr site! http://sexualdestinies.tumblr.com/
NB is back in Vegas with another trade show. It feels strange not being there with him, but my work schedule will be crazy for the next five months and my traveling wings have been clipped! So he will be traveling to see me during this time. Hopefully next toward the end of this month. My libido is going crazy without him, even though I do have another distraction locally, it's so much better when he is around. I do know it's hard for those who are not in a cuckold relationship to understand the deep bond that is involved. To them the extra activity would seem to drive a couple a part. But for those who find this relationship and lifestyle rewarding it is truly the opposite. It binds us even closer together. It is who we are. So in my celebration of the beautiful and many forms that men come in I'm adding something about my own luscious cuck. Without him life would lose it's beauty.
Speaking of beauty.....I find the soft surrender of this young man intoxicating!