Monday, November 5, 2012

Transitions ~ Preparing for the Beauty and Lust ahead!

It's been a calm two weeks with NB back in CA handling some personal business along with work. I'm not very patient when it comes to transition times in my life.  I hate 'lulls' and just desire to move ahead to my next destination. 2012 has all been about transition and I'm feeling like shouting from the roof tops, "Enough is Enough!".  I know I still have some waiting time ahead as NB finishes going through his own transition and as I tell myself it will soon be over and we will eventually be settle into somewhat of a normal routine for our lives.  I sometimes wonder if there is such a thing! ;)  Our lives will never be what others describe as normal.  And that makes me happy.

Until then...I busy myself with work on my writing and research I've been doing for the past few months on a new page for this blog that will cover and give resources on information on the incredible wiring of our brain, how fluid it is, how magnificent it can heal and re-wire itself and how it all is connected to our sexually.  This was my original intent when I started this blog.  To dig deep into why we have the urges we do, and why somethings can't be explained away by childhood trauma, abuse etc.  I was never sexually abused as a child and for that I am thankful.  But I did suffer loss as a child.  My mother died when I was 10 and being the oldest of two children, that loss seemed to amp up the dominate nature that was already showing itself.

So as I've explored more into my own sexuality, I have gone on a quest to find answers and am hoping once this page is done and functioning it will help my readers on their own journeys of understanding themselves and those in their lives better.  The excitement of seeing that accomplished keeps me going through this transition period I find myself in.

I am thankful for those who follow along with this blog, taking a peak into my life, mind and soul and I desire the most life has to offer to enrich your lives.

I so love this image below!  It expresses how I feel about sexuality, BDSM, D/s relationships and wanting to ravish myself in all life has to offer. A beautiful submissive man, bound, surrendered and the woman just ecstatic at everything he has given to her and represents! You Go Girl!!!! Grab life and indulge yourself!


  1. Did your mother die when YOU were 10? Because if she died while giving birth to you when she was 10...i mean....i don't know what to think.

    1. :) I was 10...she was 29. Still very young. I'll edit that part since it seems to be unclear.

      ~ Vista

  2. "I (...) am hoping once this page is done and functioning it will help my readers on their own journeys of understanding themselves and those in their lives better."

    It definitely does. It is so enriching and arousing...Thank you so much, and very sorry you had to overcome such a difficult time in your childhood.



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