I seem to be in a bit of a funk and I'm taking the time to examine where I am in my life at the moment and if I'm content to continue down this path or make some changes.
I came back from a wonderful 3 1/2 days of sun, attention, loving and great sex with NB. It was really a fabulous time and enjoying each other's company with no concrete plans in place. We concentrated on 'us' and I felt we made even more headway in the foundation of who we are together. And then I came home and my emotions crashed. Looking back it's been a long time in coming.
NB and I have been through a lot in the time we have known each other. When we are together things are perfect, smooth and relaxing. And also very exciting. But these last few times when we have gone through long weeks of being apart, I've been starting to feel the strain on my emotions. I'm not one to over think and dwell on things I have no control over. I probably error on the side of denial, hoping things will eventually work themselves out as I think on the positive aspects of my life. But the heart has a mind of it's own and it's own time table. Mine finally got the attention of my brain.
So I'm stepping back and giving myself a break, taking a deep breath and seeing what it is I really want out of my life. What path do I want to be on and where do I wish to be this time next year. There are many factors to consider, NB being a very big factor. But I'm not feeling excitement and very adventurous at the moment. I recognize a crossroad and I'm going to stop and ponder the signs ahead.
I'll still be here, not going anywhere. But I'm not going to being seeing Mr. Snow (as sexy and lovely as he is) or anyone else for that matter until I understand where I am and where I want to be. In fact to prove the funk I'm in, I was going to share with all of you a very kinky and thrilling time NB and I had together. So emotionally and psychologically deep and hot! But.... decided to keep that between the two of us.
Stay with me! Erotic sexy stories will still flow here, just based on fiction and not real life for a time.
The main thing I have always tried to get across in this blog is that we pay attention to who we are, stay authentic, don't fall into the trap of routine and doing what we think is expected of us. Stay true to who we are. We are the only ones living in our flesh and hearing the thoughts rolling around in our brains! Always be true and good to yourself. That is what I'm doing right now.
Love you all!
~ Vista
" I was going to share with all of you a very kinky and thrilling time NB and I had together. So emotionally and psychologically deep and hot! But.... decided to keep that between the two of us. "
ReplyDeleteVery wise. There are times when having a great time and NOT shouting about it from the rooftops keeps it safe and precious,
"Always be true and good to yourself."
Yes.
Shakespeare, as always has the last word:
This above all, to thine own self be true
And it must follow as the night the day
Thou canst not then be false to any man.
Lovely to hear from you. Thank you for your comments. ;)
DeleteWe'll see what the next few weeks brings to pass.
~ Vista